It's understandable.Nothing worse that being expected to perform 24-7.
In every day job i have ever had, i have held back the magic, because I just dont want to do it unless i want to.
Naturaly when there is an audience, Its easy.
but it has to be on my terms.If you know what i mean.
My family hardly ever see me do stuff. Ive tons of nieces and nephiews, all of who know that when they see something, its special.
Can you imagine what it would be like if magic became common place?